longing days..!!

Longing days

Shrutasree Chattopadhyay

It's been a long time...

Long in a sense of time..

Long in a sense of feelings.. been a long like light-year away,

The faces I used to see,

Those smiles that lifted my heart

It's been awfully long

That I  smelled the air of freedom

All been fades into a battle of existence..

It's been a long time

that I have smiled carelessly,

Counting my hours and seconds

It's natural now, it's been that way

Still heart grows fonder of the memories,

That is why I am looking outside

To the future of colour and freedom

It's been long, but never lost, those smiles

I am looking , just waiting to reach out

And touch what was once mine...!!

light and dark...!!

Light and dark..!!

Shrutasree Chattopadhyay

The stories we tell to ease the mind

The smile we see to hide the pain,

The light we need to fight the darkness..

All hidden in our hearts to be found someday.

Love that we feel..

Tears that we shed...

All are here just reach out 

and touch them....

Fire will rise, night will end...

For we are the light....

and we are the dark..!!

Days with love or a day for love..!!!!

Days with love or a day for love..!!!!

"Heard melodies are sweet, but those unheard are sweeter."

― Ode on a Grecian Urn(John Keats)

It’s been a long time since I wrote something from my heart or for my heart; I was busy writing pages and pages of words for my study and not for my mind. But that does not mean that I did not think or my mind was numb. When you can’t speak or write what’s in your mind, that is the time your mind goes into overdrive. There are so many things in my mind right now that needs to be out but I can’t, not at once. So I am writing about something that is kind of everywhere now because it is the month of love!

Love..!!! Very weird feelings come to mind while speaking of it. Love is confusing, overwhelming but liberating at the same time. Love can make someone happy if only there is no expectation around it like chains. You can love as much as you want but when you start expecting many things from the people you love that is the root of sadness, heartbreak and disappointment.

Love means a sweet pain in your heart, it means smiling without any reason, it means you can be happy or stupidly optimistic without any logical reason. But then why people blame love for unhappiness and pain and suffering? Love can never hurt anyone but people can, and people certainly do hurt one another sometime knowingly and sometime unknowingly.

When we love someone and expect a world of emotions in return from them it is bound to get ugly. People are not mind readers or superpower full psychics so they can’t always understand the feelings nor understand the actions that are expected from them so that leaves to heartbreak and pain. Sometime I think about love sometime, often loves come around and make me feel things.

I am a weird person, for me love is reading a good book in a cozy corner of my home, love is traveling and meeting new people, love is spending time with people that I care about; love is staring at the star in middle of the night and thing about stories that may be happened somewhere. But one thing I never loved or liked is playing games in love. Love should be bold and free and expressive. It should never hide behind shadows; stalkers often hide behind shadows..!! Not love..!!

"Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own."

— Robert Heinlein

If someone care or love someone they should be clear and upfront about their feeling, use your words..!! There are millions of literary works those are about love so you can surely find appropriate words to describe your feelings..!! Love should be unconditional, it should never be like chains you can’t bind someone with you and call that love..!! You can love freely but make someone love you back by force or tricks or playing games…..

Tricking someone in love can badly end, everyone know about Voldemort and his loveless origins right…??? Love can be powerful and sweet and inspirational just don’t turn it into something dark and sinister and materialistic. Love is about mind and soul nothing matters when to souls finds love. Otherwise nothing matters, no feeling matters if that is based on some materialistic goals.

Love makes a person more than they are, it makes your perspective broader it teaches you that you have infinite space in your heart and love can grow without any limits.  Tomorrow is 14^th February, everyone call it the day of love, though every day is for love and without love how can we live even one day?

"Love is a promise; love is a souvenir, once given never forgotten, never let it disappear."

— John Lennon

War against us…..!!!

War against us…..!!!

It’s been a while; I was busy with so many little things that I ignored my need for sharing my thoughts and feelings. It is never good for anyone, bottled up thoughts and words are like bottle up pressure, which can get out with a bang in any minute. But one thought is making me crazy for a long time, that how we are treating our planet, it is our only home and we are destroying it without even a glimpse of regret. Ecosystem should be a synchronize system of cohabitation, where every flora and fauna should be connected and cooperated to sustain the nature in a balanced way. But what is our purpose in nature? What do we do to sustain it or help it? It’s like from the very beginning human beings are acting as a virus which is harming the host body and killing of the organs that need to survive. I know it is a horrible thought but we do nothing that is not beneficial to us every innovation and progress for our own sake but not in a long run. If we are harming the host body, (Our only home Earth), when it will react with antibody then what?

Nature is acting out, or just all of these are reaction of our past actions. A tree is more beneficial while it’s living, it gives us oxygen it is the only living thing that makes this planet habitable for other living organisms, but if it burns out then it is bad for environment. But we treat this living berating life form like our own property. I don’t mean any offence but vegans are shouting for saving lives, not killing animals because they are alive, but trees are alive too, they are not inanimate objects.  They born, grow up, reproduce and get old, have a life span, so why we don’t treat them like that? We are killing ourselves in the long run by cutting the vegetation and destroying the ecosystem, but most of us still blind to the effects of our action. 

                           

People often make fun of the people who are against cutting trees or against air pollution, people ridicule them by calling them overacting bunch of party-poopers, but party or enjoyment is more important than breathing of life itself? When we ask someone not to use firecrackers, or cut a tree or burn the garbage they just laugh and say what is the action of one man can change or effect, what I do does not matter… So when we all suffer in extreme heat and in other natural disaster all of us suffer equally, every one each of us, still people don’t give damn about anything. 

They are clearing garbage by burning them, the basic school level knowledge can tell us that nothing lives the earth atmosphere, in different form they exist, we cannot see them does not make them extinct. The garbage was a pile of object in front of us now it still exists but as is gas forms in our lungs because we breathe the polluted air. Now we inhaled that garbage and smile like stupid people thinking that it’s gone. We know about recycling but never do it because sadly idiotic actions are still not illegal.  It should be but sadly it is not. So when we know the air we breathe is now poisonous full of harmful gases we have breathed because we are sharing the same air with those who are making it harmful.

No one wants to die, everyone dream of having a good life but by ignoring basic precautions and silently helping destruction of our ecosystem we are committing slow and painful suicide as a species. The nature will recycle, it will cleat itself it must to start a new fresh cycle of life but how many of us will survive to see that? Every action has a reaction, every thought can influence an action, and one person can change at least their home or neighborhood.  

It is enough blunder done by us, our nature is at its tipping point still we are blind, it’s funny how people react when someone try to save a tree or a forest or protest against pollution it’s like they are the crazy ones. But it is just the opposite, the normal people who are harming their only home by ignorance and stupidity are the crazy ones who will be responsible for disasters and still they will blame their fate or god or anything else just to avoid responsibility. Stupidity should be illegal, physics, chemistry, geography history are not just subjects you studied to pass an examination or to get a job, we should use those knowledge in real life, or no job, no amount of money, nor can any materialistic achievement help us save our future in this planet which is starting to rage a war against us with a valid reason.

Stop acting like a virus, act as a part of an ecosystem, help sustaining this beautiful planet, or we will be exterminate as a disease. Or we will miss the next chapter of this planet or most of us will.

Love Nature, Protect it, and we should be one with nature because we should work with it not against it...!!!!

Ode to The One..!!

Ode to The One..!!

In every hundred year or so I ask the same question,

Why! Why I have to go, why I have to see again?

My story is over, thousands time it’s been over,

I had many endings; I had many unfinished stories,

I had my heart broken; I had my happy endings,

I saw them grow, I watched them die, and I felt their love

I felt all the hate, I cried and I smiled, I Loved and I killed,

I saved them, I betrayed them, I did it all, then why?

Still I have to go back, live and die, love & hate,

Kill or save, why again?

You always just smile; maybe I have yet to see,

Maybe something great, or something dreadful,

Maybe there is something I must have, to grow,

Or I just have to leave all behind,

Everything I think is mine,

Is nothing but skin, I have to shed,

Love or hate, pain or joy everything is for the world

Not for the soul, not for us, not for me.

Your smile tells me all. But I don’t want to go,

It is my home its worm and it is also cold,

I feel pain and joy in this very moment,

I always welcomed death as an old friend,

Because I knew it would take me home to you.

But now I am going again, the only thing I can say is

Why? Just this time let me stay…..

But those words are the reason I must go,

I know, you know and the world knows, still

I will ask why as long as I am me……and you will smile

As long we are not one.

Blame Game…!!

 Blame Game…!!

We dream of peace unity and progress but do we really believe in those concepts?? Do we really want peace? If so then why we act against it every time we get a chance? Do we really want to live in a progressive world where we can build a new future, then why we take a step backward whenever we get a chance? Loving a family member or a blood relative is easy but loving a stranger is perplexing. Throwing words around is easy but doing something to help our world is difficult.

What are we doing now? Arguing about things that does not help us create a world safe and innovative for the next generation, we are destroying it. We are ripping to shreds any chance of peace and unity with our bare hands, we are shouting arguing blindly about matters that are not even relevant. What about real issues? Why there are people still dying of hunger? Why there are kids who are working in their childhood but not getting any education? Why people are dying of malnutrition and illness that are curable? Why we are not talking about a better healthcare for poor, and why we are not talking about the corruption in our country? There is so much to be done, nothing is happening & we are living in denial. We are avoiding the real problems but those are not going to solve themselves.

When logic & rationalism dies, when we shut our eyes close we could not see the real monsters lurking in the shadows. We fuel hate, discrimination, & suspicion but we weaken love, respect, and unity. With our words we are not actually doing anything creative or constructive, we are stuck in a game of hide and seek. Hiding the real problems and finding a trivial thing to fight about. We are going to die anyway, and our existence is just over like that. We live for very little amount of time, and we are wasting it with hate, war, & death. This is how we are using our time on this earth, using our brains our precious breath, why because we are scared of our truth, we are insecure, afraid, weak, & we are confused. We don’t know what to do about the problems so we hide them & throw them aside and shout and scream to make others feel bad, we are acting like sadist. We can’t find our own happiness so we want to destroy others maybe then we can be happy. 

But happiness comes from within. Satisfaction comes from hard work and trying. Nothing else can help. So we should open our eyes, use our brilliant brains and fight head on against all the problems around us together with love. But it is a dream right? Who would choose love against hate? Who would fight against problems? Playing the blame game is much easier isn’t it?

Breakable.

Breakable.

Shrutasree Chattopadhyay

Some things break silently,

Like whispers in the shadows,

Silently melting all around us.

Breaks slowly carefully,

Without any remorse, or a single thought,

Some things break silently without any care.

Heart breaks silently inside our chest,

Home breaks silently inside our own head,

Love breaks slowly with time & silence,

All around us they break one by one.

We are left without anything but the broken shells.

All things break silently, all we can hear is pain.