longing days..!!

Longing days

Shrutasree Chattopadhyay

It's been a long time...

Long in a sense of time..

Long in a sense of feelings.. been a long like light-year away,

The faces I used to see,

Those smiles that lifted my heart

It's been awfully long

That I  smelled the air of freedom

All been fades into a battle of existence..

It's been a long time

that I have smiled carelessly,

Counting my hours and seconds

It's natural now, it's been that way

Still heart grows fonder of the memories,

That is why I am looking outside

To the future of colour and freedom

It's been long, but never lost, those smiles

I am looking , just waiting to reach out

And touch what was once mine...!!

light and dark...!!

Light and dark..!!

Shrutasree Chattopadhyay

The stories we tell to ease the mind

The smile we see to hide the pain,

The light we need to fight the darkness..

All hidden in our hearts to be found someday.

Love that we feel..

Tears that we shed...

All are here just reach out 

and touch them....

Fire will rise, night will end...

For we are the light....

and we are the dark..!!

Ode to The One..!!

Ode to The One..!!

In every hundred year or so I ask the same question,

Why! Why I have to go, why I have to see again?

My story is over, thousands time it’s been over,

I had many endings; I had many unfinished stories,

I had my heart broken; I had my happy endings,

I saw them grow, I watched them die, and I felt their love

I felt all the hate, I cried and I smiled, I Loved and I killed,

I saved them, I betrayed them, I did it all, then why?

Still I have to go back, live and die, love & hate,

Kill or save, why again?

You always just smile; maybe I have yet to see,

Maybe something great, or something dreadful,

Maybe there is something I must have, to grow,

Or I just have to leave all behind,

Everything I think is mine,

Is nothing but skin, I have to shed,

Love or hate, pain or joy everything is for the world

Not for the soul, not for us, not for me.

Your smile tells me all. But I don’t want to go,

It is my home its worm and it is also cold,

I feel pain and joy in this very moment,

I always welcomed death as an old friend,

Because I knew it would take me home to you.

But now I am going again, the only thing I can say is

Why? Just this time let me stay…..

But those words are the reason I must go,

I know, you know and the world knows, still

I will ask why as long as I am me……and you will smile

As long we are not one.

Breakable.

Breakable.

Shrutasree Chattopadhyay

Some things break silently,

Like whispers in the shadows,

Silently melting all around us.

Breaks slowly carefully,

Without any remorse, or a single thought,

Some things break silently without any care.

Heart breaks silently inside our chest,

Home breaks silently inside our own head,

Love breaks slowly with time & silence,

All around us they break one by one.

We are left without anything but the broken shells.

All things break silently, all we can hear is pain.

Crazy!!!!

Crazy

I do feel you in my blood,

when you flow in my veins,

I can always hear you

with my each heartbeat.

I thought you have realized me

Those medicines may have thrown you out

from my body, from my brain.

I thought I was the winner

You must have loose….

did you really been defeated?

But no!!!

Again like always I can feel you

more powerful than ever.

You never left me,

Deep down waited for a right moment

When I will be vulnerable again..

Now I fully acknowledge you

Cannot care about the world no more,

Nor I can hide you,

You were there and always will be

The craziness of me….

My Soul.....

My Soul

Every drop of your tear

makes a Blood Rose,

Every sorrow of your bleeding heart

makes a Wild Fire.

Every feeling that you feel

Makes the true you!

Every time when you think

creates a little bit of me.

Deep down in your heart

their always me

I am your soul in you

and always will be…..

Lost Dream!!

Lost Dream!!

I saw the Fire Rain,

I believed in the Moon angel!

I swimmed in Golden River; but did you?

You never did anything like those,

did you ever wanted to catch a

star in your hands? No you did not!

I was once your dream,

you have lost me long time ago

in a concrete world.

Still I am waiting for you,

in the fire clouds, in the moonlight,

even in golden rays

Of the sun..

Will you ever going to find me

And make me your dream ever again?

Today

Today

Once everything was…

Like today, all the songs left behind

all the love once felt

all those roads lead toward

Today…..

Where I stand, still cold

like I was before,

Warmth, all the sweet songs

All those reminiscences are

looking for me.

They don’t belong here

today…

They are the forgotten things,

they were alive once,

all the way that journey I was on,

lead me here today….

Past is fading, some memories

not worth keeping, so standing still,

cold and mystified.

Today I shall sing a new song

for a brand new journey ahead….

Never again

Never again

What are you afraid of?

The raging fire inside me scares you?

or the anger the mounted feeling ready

to explode threatens you?

Not your fault nevertheless

It scares me too, the emotional

Storm inside my brain,

every tissue is burning,

a living hell, inside me.

Who would not be scared?

Fear is something I always been scared of

but my anger, my raging feelings, 

stored emotions

Makes me afraid without my concern;

Or it is all a silly excuse to escape from the

Inevitable, the ground plan of the universe,

a cruel unending game of fate; the destiny?

No more Never…….

I am denying all unknown, unseen powers around me

No eternal system, no universal plan, no fate

Only me, my desires, my feeling, my words

What are you waiting for, shout with your full energy

deny me once again ignore my anger

my fears, but not my mind

Not my soul, not going to obey you blindly,

If fear is disgusting then flattery is murder the soul

What are you afraid of?

Sure you can be, I am not stopping you

Not assuring you either

Be afraid be scared…be all those pathetic things

Just do not include me in your foul design……No more, Never again